January 2021 A new year, new dreams, new possibilities, new life. new whole complete I write this sitting on my couch listening to Friends drone on the T.V. for the fourth hour straight as I heal from the worst burnout I've experienced yet. I write this remembering the cold January snow hitting my cheeks, free… Continue reading What Happens When Rock Bottom Hits Back?
Mothers Day is approaching and a day I usually love, I now dread. Pre-miscarriage, I loved the photo's on social media of new moms celebrating first Mothers Days, pregnant folks celebrating their babies-to -come and all of the handmade cards from little ones. I looked forward to Indigo's Mothers Day emails of gift guides for… Continue reading Mothers Day Post Miscarriage + Triggers From Miscarriage Survivors.
I'll start off my saying that a happy list is not the same as a gratitude list. Though I may be grateful for the things that make me happy, it's simpler than that. A happy list doesn't have to have things that you feel obligated to feel thankful for, it's more relaxed than that. It's just things that make you smile, make your heart warm and make you feel like life is worth living.
I'm sure Im not the only one who misses patio date nights, walks on the beach (sans mask) and going to see the newest movies in theatre. Honestly, it's not the activities I miss (okay, maybe I miss them a little)- it's the bond with my partner through the activities. Sharing a dessert while the… Continue reading My Top 3 Stay at Home Date Ideas
Ah reading. It's become one of my favorite things to do. Whether it's in the morning with the windows open and a warm cup of coffee in hand, of in the evening before bed under warm blankets and dim lights. I remember reading as a kid and loving it. The escape each book held, the… Continue reading How Reading Has Helped Me Post Miscarriage + My Top 3 Books of 2021 so Far.
1 month since losing you. 1 month of pure terror.1 month of staring depression in the face and choosing to survive.1 month of waking up and remembering you're gone.1 month I wish I could forget.1 month without you. Today marks 1 month since we lost our baby, Mars. In that month, we've experienced every single… Continue reading Miscarriage Q&A
In a month I turn 26 (cue mid 20s existential crisis). I'll be closer to 30 than 20 and if that's not enough to make me feel old I don't know what is. Lucky for me, I like getting older. I like growing and learning and evolving into the best possible version of myself. I… Continue reading 25 Lessons I’ve Learned so Far
This one goes out to all of the people going through fertility treatments/procedures in hopes of conceiving. It also goes out to their support system, wife, husband, partner, best friend, roommate- whoever has truly got their back! It is also dedicated to people who aren't so helpful. I in no way think anyone is being… Continue reading Things to NEVER Say to Someone Going Through Fertility Treatments/ Infertility
I remember it vividly. I think I was in the first or second grade. We were asked to dress up as the profession we wanted when we grew up. I, without hesitation, began planning my costume in my head. An artist. It was simple. I wanted to paint, and make art in whatever way possible.… Continue reading What do You Want to be When You Grow up? At 25 I still have no idea.
First off- I'd like to start this post by saying I love my wife VERY much. I remember when we first started dating I was blown away by her ability to open her mouth and project sounds that didn't resemble a dying animal (Note: I really cannot sing). I was even more impressed when she… Continue reading Being The Wife of A Musician: The Things No One Tells You