Here’s the low down. I’m sick. I have been for years, but not like this. Anxiety, depression and panic attacks have consumed every ounce of joy I once had. I am devoured by terrible intrusive thoughts daily and am at a loss as to what direction to turn. I’ve tried talk counselling, CBT workbooks, educational books regarding mental health, yoga & fitness, diet and nutrition, medication (after medication after medication…). It isn’t cutting it.
For the first time in a while I feel weak– unable to hold up my adult body. I feel child like in terms of my lack of reliability and selfishness. But I have to be selfish right now. I have to continue searching for methods and treatments to help me manage my brain. Because what I’m doing now ISN’T working.
I have the summer off from the school board. It’s the perfect time to get my shit together and find something that WORKS. I am willing to fight like hell...I just need time to do it.
Step:
- Ditch Facebook. Who really wants to see everyones best moments when they’re feeling their worst?
- Make it through the last TWO days of work. You can do it!
- Cancel the nanny gig I agreed to before this insane bout of depression and panic came on.
- Find a new psych- someone with new innovative techniques and method. I’ve tried the CBT, talk therapy bullshit.
Wish me luck & feel free to share your stories of healing through mental illness.
Love. 
